.Hi. Me and boyfriend are both 24 and been together 9 months. We aren't living together but living at home with our parents. We are both furloughed so are mostly at home.
It's not been over 2 months since we seen each other. Everything seemed happy and loving up until 2 days ago were everything feels strained but I feel it's me being moody. I did come on my period today but I feel over emotional and really strained.
I can't quite put my finger on what feels different. It just feels like i'm in a mood.
For example, I was happy all day yesterday, we had a call at 6pm and he said he had been playing a game with his friends and this girl plays with his friends regularly over speaker. I then snapped and said I wouldnt be happy if he plays with this girl. Rest of the call was fine apart from I started crying about how rubbish everything is.
Ever since, i've just felt moody. I feel like crying all the time.
And little things that wouldnt usually get to me are getting to me.
Like I hadnt heard off him all day until 8pm. Usually i'm fine about this but today I was bubbling to myself 'he's losing interest', 'why is he ignoring me'.
We then rang at 8pm and things just felt off. I told him I had to go for 1 min. And I cried to myself for 5 minutes. Quickly redid my makeup and then acted like everything was fine.
We then had a 'debate' 'argument' (whatever you want to call it). I said I hope we dont have to wait until the end of the year to see family and friends. He said 'well if it takes a year, it takes a year' and then an argument started where he said I was stupid and being selfish for wanting to see family and friends, and I said I don't get why i'm stupid for wanting to see the people close to me.
And I just feel awful. We usually always end with an "i love you" but today it was just 'bye' 'bye'.
I feel absolutely rotten :(
I don't know if it's my period or whether i'm becoming slightly depressed. I'm just sad :(
Don't even know what I want from typing this, just need a rant