Been married 14 years tomorrow but the whole marriage has been a sham. I have found messages, emails even looking up sex workers over the years. As far as I know it never led to anything but shows a lack of respect.
Last year I suggested an open marriage. It worked for a while, made us appreciate each other for a while but I don't think he liked me getting more interest than him.
We have 3 children, Youngest is only 3. I gave up my part time job the year before last so I have no money coming in. He normally works full time and travels 2 hours a day so hardly see him but since lock down Im struggling. He works from home and stays out the way but when I do see him we start to argue and he has started to make my skin crawl. One e.g I had a bath the other night, my only me time and he opened the bathroom door safety lock. Looked at me I could tell what he wanted to do I said no! and he reached down and touched me, I said I told you no! and he said sorry and left.
With 3 children though and no job I don't know what I can do. We have some savings and a rented property.