So....My boyfriend of 2 1/2 years dumped me partly because he's in pursuit of something that was 'missing' from his life - and that he 'needed' and 'wanted' more ... and partly because I have BPD and have a tendency to be a little bit insecure due to feeling incredibly unloveable, unworthy and fear abandonment (which is sadly who I am and he knew that I felt like that when we first got together...). He didn't appreciate my inability to communicate my feelings the way I did.
Now, I don't know what's worse, the fact he doesn't feel happy and that something is missing something that I obviously couldn't give him (which makes
my BPD go nutso) or the fact that with a mental illness it makes me an unbearable person to be around....
Let me just add, I adored him, loved him completely, never cheated (he did sext someone one on a fuck site) and really saw him as the man I was going to be with - and having him say that too... I believed him...
Can't decide what is worse...I failed at being a person that could enhance his life or my mental illness has destroyed another relationship!!!