I need to leave but have nowhere to go

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So lockdown has really highlighted to me that DP is a complete wanker. I've been feeling for a while that he treats me quite shittily but this has confirmed it.

We have been arguing a lot and today was awful, I called him out on a lot of stuff that obviously didn't go down well and it turned into a horrific fallout. We have a DS who is 10 months old (none of the fighting has been in front of him thankfully)

So now I want to leave, I can't be around that toxic atmosphere. But I don't know where to go. All my family live 6 hours away, my close friends over 7 hours away. I have no friends locally (one of my issues, I feel my partner has been isolating me and making me feel like I'm not worthy of anyone except him). Difficult to pack all the stuff a 10month old needs as well, but I'm reluctant to go without him (say to my family) as DP doesn't know his routine and quite frankly I don't trust him to look after him properly.

What do I do? Are any hotels or B and Bs open?

Good luck op
I could put my dh through a wall right now . It's awful feeling trapped

Of Course you can leave OP
Better now than ever in many ways

Good luck

We got here safely and are being thoroughly looked after by the parents. Thanks all for giving me the confidence to go, I needed a push even though I knew it was the right thing.

Well done! It takes gut to do what you've done. Baby under one arm. Bag of stuff under the other. Huge round of applause to you.

You deserve better. When a baby comes along, that is often the time that we start to see things for exactly what they are. I've been in your situation. "Pick up the babies and get the hell out of there."

I hope you have a LOVELY weekend. You have made the first step towards a much better life.

Well done xx

Yes!! It’s so good to read updates like this. Well done you for having the guts to follow your instincts and be brave. Awesome. Now you can start to live your life without that arsehole dragging you down. Don’t go back. Remember you left for a reason. Start looking into how to support yourself near your family. Remember how happy you feel right now being in a supportive environment. You’re an inspiration. I hope everyone who is dealing with shit, toxic, bully men right now reads your update and follows your example. It can be done.