This is quite long and I dont really know where to start - it might also be a bit jumbled so apologies about that. I really dislike my partner and I want to leave. We have been together for just over 10 years and have a daughter together. Our relationship has always been quite up on down but at the beginning we got on so well, it all changed I think when we moved in together after about for years of going out. He's always been extremely vocal with his opinions and if I have a differing opinion he will literally fly off the handle and it will end in a huge argument. He's called me stupid on several occasions and thinks he is superior to most people in the sense that he is smarter. He has always been the main breadwinner and I think he has used that massively to his advantage, he has never helped me out with money, ever. For exampe when my daughter started nursery it was a quite a way from where I lived and I would have to get a minimum of two buses, whenever I would ask him for bus fare he would say why didnt I ask him earlier? Why didn't I remind him as he had no cash to give me but she went to nursery on the same day every week so why shoukd I have to remind him. I ended up having to walk there a lot because of this. I used to literally live on my child benefit which was £20 a week and that was it. He's been verbally abusive, he's called me a c**t on many occasions, he's thrown things at me, chased me during arguments (although that hasn't happened now for a long time -several years) He's never acknowledged that taking care of my daughter is hard work, he says its easy and that I dont contribute anything. Gosh, when I'm writing all of this I'm starting to realise how bad its actually been.
The thing that gets to me is that my Dad was exactly the same, very abusive and controlling of my Mum and violent towards me and my sisters (partner has never been like that with our daughter) but I feel terrible it all, like history is repeating itself.