I'm thinking of leaving my husband but I don't have the balls and were in a lockdown, feeling so trapped and alone. I have two small children and it'll be so hard but I'm living in a permanent sense of stress, tension, anxiety and the rows are horrific. This is nothing new to be honest, having children together has raised every issue we've ever had (his being an alcohol abuser and trauma from his upbringing) and since Christmas really it's been extremely bad!
I'm praying, like every day how to dig deep and be more Christian and patient and forgiving but it's not working. Do I sacrifice happiness?