I'm 26 been my boyfriend 8 years this year, just being in lock down has got me thinking how short life is? ( Not sure I want any children) so no DCs, We got together I just turned 19 I do love him still and enjoy spending time together just sometimes I think and wonder if I could be with someone more suitable? I quess I'm panicking that I could look back on my life and will only have ever been with one long term relationship? I did have few before him but they was nothing long term.
I am mostly the one intiating our sex life and when we do have it it's not very good I have struggled to orgasm him past 6 so months. Also when we are together vdont seem have much talk about just on our phones or watch each other game/ TV shows. I don't want to feel I settled but then don't want to leave when I still love him. Don't know what answer I want really just worried what I'm questioning? X I'm panicking thinking I'm not happy then few days later I am and can look forward to the future. Is this grass is greener?
I also don't have many friends I can relate to about what I'm saying either so thought best to ask on here X