On a positive side... I have been in contact with a lot of people, I do try keep in touch with those on their own as I think it is very difficult being so isolated for some. Most speak quite openly about how they are and enjoy a bit of a chit chat with someone else. Those who are dads with no access to their children are the ones that seem to be battling the most.
On the not so positive side....
One of these is my exdp (I had a thread about him end of January when we broke up). The controlling side of him started to surface and this is when I broke away.
I don't live in the UK so our lockdown is a bit different to UK. We have very strict measures in place which doesn't allow us out at all, not even to have a walk or go to the park, walk the dog etc. Only allowed out for essential food, meds etc. As part of our strict lockdown, the sale of alcohol and cigarettes has been banned. This means that most people, that were able to, stockpiled alcohol (and cigarettes) before the lockdown came into force.
Now exdp likes a drink. He is very heavy handed with a bottle and part of the break up was that I didn't feel comfortable with the amount he drinks and how his behaviour changed when he did. So as we spoke only briefly after the breakup, I don't know how much he stockpiled, but I will gauge a guess at, quite a lot.
As he is at home alone as well, he messaged a couple of time and I messaged back and we speak a little bit now. I never speak about the relationship, the break up etc, just generally checking in stuff. I know a few nights he has had a total binges as he had messaged me at 3am with a song or speaking in his 'drunk' tone. They mean nothing to me as i know he is drunk and I don't respond.
He has a daughter who is 19. She too likes a party being in Uni (now not of course) and is staying with her mum now, they have quite a volatile relationship. Just after lockdown started I asked him if he planned on having his daughter for some of the time (I was thinking about her mental health as she doesn't get on with her mum and I'm sure they argue a lot) to which he said, 'we will see'. I didn't mention her again and yesterday he messaged me to say that he is battling with this lockdown now and just wants it over. So, me thinking its due to being so isolated, I suggest that he ask his daughter to stay with him a while (we are almost a month into lockdown and dc of divorced parents are able to move between homes).
His reply to this just left me astounded. He said, but if she comes that is the end of my booze stash.
. I really didn't know what to say back as was so shocked that he is making his alcohol a preference over his child's well being. Eventually I just said well its either having company and your daughter and rationing, or having no rationing and being alone. He then said that he is okay being alone. Not a mention about his daughter.
I know that I dodged a bullet here, but this just shocked me to the core.
And there I am in contact with fathers who want nothing more than to just see their children but cannot (due to various reasons....distance, being essential workers etc etc).
I spoke to exdp quite a lot about his alcohol consumption. Every time he disagreed with me that it was an issue (most of the time heated), as he can 'take it or leave it'. I think that this just proves that its a major priority in his life.
I feel do dreadfully sorry for his daughter. I can do nothing about it but sit and watch from the sidelines. But it did make me think that it has taken a situation like this to really see the good and the not so good in some people.
Just needed to get this out somewhere. The relationship is over and yes I dodged a bullet but surely it can't just be me who thinks that this is just not right.