Hello, just need a bit of help,
Very anxious- husband been made redundant which he is appealing against.
Lockdown not helping- 12 yr old boy getting very grumpy and can’t think of anything to do except screen time. At bed he becomes nice again but starts running around, so I have to tell him to quiet down, after telling him to perk up all day!
Dd seems ok, but I know she is fed up with her brother. We all miss him being jolly.
Dh says well have to sell house. Says it’s pointless me getting a job unless it’s a proper job - 37 hours a week in an office.
Pretty sure the kids heard him.
Working in a shop or part time doesn’t help the family apparently. It’s not enough money, I’m kidding myself because it’s easier than getting a proper job. I have a degree! So apparently I should be able to get an amazing career. ( I did have one before kids; 14 years ago) even I’m ashamed that I haven’t found work.
I did look into teaching but found it totally daunting - and I stupidly thought I’d have something else by now.
He was very cross at my part time cafe job which was just kidding myself.
I sold some pictures at Xmas, which I thought went ok - I didn’t earn loads, about £1000 over 2 months, and I’ve been told by business development thing that it could be a business.
But dh tells me it was 2 months when the house was a tip, I didn’t earn enough, it’s not a business, I’m wasting my time, that I am sleepwalking into disaster.
I’ve been looking for a job for ages, don’t seem to ever have the right skills.
Am so anxious I can’t think straight and feel like every avenue I think of is wrong or a dead end. I really can’t see where to aim for. Surely any job is a start? And would help the cv? Feeling totally useless.
I know I sound wimpy but I really am stuck, advise please!