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Needed some advice.

I feel as thought I'm going crazy right now. Also can't get a doctors appointment obviously due to COVID-19

My moods keep changing and this is affecting my marriage massively. One minute I'm totally fine an me and DH are getting on well and the next minute I'm just angry and I get so mad and frustrated with DH. This has been going on for a while now. I don't know how to control my anger. I just get so upset over the silliest things and get very emotional.

I really don't know what to do. Sometimes I think do I have some sort of personality disorder. It literally takes seconds for my mood to change. Just need some advice if anyone has beeen through this? As this is affecting my marriage an I don't know how long I can keep feeling this way

Are you on any hormonal contraception?I'm like this if I'm on any at all. It really doesnt agree with me.

I have got the IUD coil in but that's the non hormonal one so I don't think it's that ?

I really feel upset about all of this as I genuinley cannot control how I feel. It's so unfair to DH. I bet he's starting to hate me and most likely cannot stand me.

I just want to be normal and not be this nasty person. I genuinley do not know what to do :(

How long you had the coil in? Sounds like I have the same one as you and gives me mood swings, anxiety and less patience.

I got the coil in January. I had mood swings before but not as bad as now. An the no patience, is definitely me! I have 0 patience now.

I genuinley don't do it on purpose but Iv just become very nasty to DH and always get mad and frustrated with him. I just need help or just want to understand why I feel the way I do. Do I have something wrong with me? Or is this just who I am?

Maybe track your moods to see if they coincide with your menstrual cycle. It's still could be hormonal. It's common to get more upset and even angry at certain times of the month.
If there is no pattern, at least then you can talk to someone professional such as your GP and know that it isn't hormonal.

@ofwarren thanks for the advice. The mods are nearly every single day. Or if I have a good day the next day I'm back to being a mess.

Is your life stressful? (Apart from covid obviously)
Can you think of any big changes that happened around the time you felt that your moods were swinging?

It's quite a stressful time isn't it? Do you like to exercise? Try running or anything fast paced. Exercise helps release endorphins and it makes you feel positive and surprisingly more productive. Keeping trying your Gp for appointment though,you should be getting a phone appointment at the least. Your surgery should be having an extended or weekend appointment's as well. They are worth a try. In the mean time do the usual, eating and sleeping well. A nice warm bath also helps elevate mood sometimes. Hope you feel better soon op.

And if you haven't already, for God's sake explain to your husband in the same way you have described it here. Otherwise he won't have any way to interpret the way you say you are treating him. Always assuming he doesn't deserve it of course 😊

Thats me too op. I track my moods now. They are definitely related to my cycle.

Do you just shout at him, or hit him / hurt him?

Make sure you talk to him and explain your feelings, otherwise he’ll never know and truly understand the situation you are in

I do shout quite a lot and I'm probably going to get a lot of slack for this but recently I've hurt him a few times like aggressively grab him an shout. I feel so bad but Iv stopped and I've apologised and said would never ever do that again. He just stays calm but he has said I'm testing his patience an he is not ok with me grabbing etc. I know there is no excuse for this behaviour. But I think I need professional help so I can understand why I'm like this

Maybe you can call up an organisation to help you with you manage your anger, but if you carry on physically abusing him, he’ll have every right to throw you out of the house

About 20 years ago I had a tiny tumour on my pituitary gland that had similar 'mood' swings. Sudden rages, no patience, any tiny stress would cause an adrenaline rush that just took over. Couldn't regulate my anger/stress emotions at all. Mood could change in a second, multiple times a day.

Doctors were crap and basically said it was pmt and women just had to deal with. But it was all month, every month, and had never been like that before. Took well over 2 years for a female doctor to take me seriously. I told her I was going to kill someone I was that out of control!

MRI scan in days, and a tablet twice a week and it went away in months. I'm still angry that I, and my 1st husband by extension, had years of unnecessary suffering and feeling crazy because they won't listen to me first, second, third etc time round.

Personality disorders don't suddenly appear later in life. And dysfunctional hormones are bloody powerful things!