NC for this
I've been with my DP now for 5 years, living together for 4, (I'm 31 and he's 27.) Our relationship has been amazing, loving, happy. That was until the beginning of the lock down.
His DM and Gran and my DF are all shielding and I wanted to make a scrapbook for them to cheer them up (all online, not sending anything) and I knew he had some photos of a wedding we attended and he took some lovely photos of his siblings and parents together. I asked him if I could have a look his gallery to view the photos and I was a bit taken aback when he refused and he would send them too me later on that evening. I let it go at first but my gut was telling me that something was up. I usually know his password but he's obviously changed it recently so I couldn't go into his phone but I know he usually never signs out of Facebook on his I pad and he hadn't this time either but there were no messages to anyone suspicious, hasn't liked or commented on anyone's photos. Went on his Instagram and them same story there too. I know he isn't having an affair cause if he isn't at work he's at home, he doesn't drink alcohol so doesn't go to clubs and pubs, doesn't have many friends to go out with and he works with my DB so if anything fishy was going on at the workplace DB would tell me. A few days later he was sat next to me and I watched him type in his password and that night went into his phone. Again no messages to anyone, no snapchats - nothing! That was until I went into his galley and found downloaded photos of my cousin, one of his colleagues and my sister, Confronted him next morning and at first he said a friend sent him the photos on whats app, asked him which friend and I could literally see him thinking madly of a friend to pin it on, told him to stop lying so he admitted he downloaded them, asked him why and again you could see him trying think of something to say! His explanation: they're just faces. Faces to fantasise about, faces of people we both know in real life! I'm absolutely fine about porn but fully clothed photos of my family members and a work colleague is something else entirely! He rambled on and on that he would never act on his fantasies and that's all they are just fantasies and it's just a photo and that he loves me to death. He asked if I have honestly never fantasised about anyone, of course I have, but I've never gone as far to download their photos into my phone. I don't know if this something we can ever get past, I know I'm in the wrong to go snooping and I have moments when I wish I hadn't and things would still I've amazing between us, I do still love him but how can I be in the same room as him and this women together again? I understand men look at other women and find another women attractive. If I end things with him now then he will have no where to go, he's a frontline worker so he can't go back to his parents home, his gran is also shielding and I morally can't ask anyone to risk and put their lives on the line to take him in either. So that would mean he would have to stay put for the meantime no matter what I decided to do. I honestly don't know if I'm being silly and dramatic or perhaps over reacting about the whole situation. Any advise, anyone been through something similar?