Hey, it's kinda a nice problem to have, I suppose....
I'm a lesbian, and back in January I started meeting up with a small group of other queer women on a monthly basis. I met this woman, and I felt we really clicked and had a lot to talk about. I did some low key flirting.
We met once more, in a group setting. I had no idea we were about to lockdown, so I spent the entire evening avoiding flirting because I didn't want to embarrass myself. At the end of the evening she stressed how nice it was to see me again. I said I hoped very much we'd see each other soon, and when I got home I connected with her on Facebook.
I've been trying to talk myself out of this crush. We have friends in common, and I'd really like to have her as a friend if we didn't date.
Since lockdown I've been facilitating weekly virtual hangouts with this group, and she's been at both of them. The last one she was the first to join and we chatted for a few minutes - that was so nice!!
Anyway, a crush whilst on lockdown is not healthy, not one bit!! I feel like I cannot talk to her about it because rejection would be very difficult whilst in lockdown. And I'm trying my best not to social media stalk.
All the strategies I'd normally use to put this out of my head aren't available. I really wish I could somehow switch this off until we can meet in person again, as the first thing I'd want to do is see if I still feel the same way after seeing her in person a couple of times.
But argh, it is driving me mad!!!!!!