Feeling so lonely tonight ..

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Beautiful day, sun shining and the smell of bbq food in our drive reminds me of happier
Times.
My husband left me in September and moved on to another woman immediately if not before.He did me a favour, I know that but it doesn't feel like it at the moment .
I saw him today as he needed to drop stuff in for kids . He looked happy, breezy and relaxed and couldn't wait to leave . He hardly acknowledged the kids. He doesn't see them during lockdown as he has chosen to move in with his girlfriend for this time. He seems Happy with his choice. I can hardly
Look at them without feeling emotional that they got such a shit of a father.
Once again. He has found someone willing to clean up his mess literally and figuratively . Someone financially strong and independent with no commitments.
I feel so lonely, so sad and can't seem
To see a happy futures for me. My kids are
Amazing but being with them
24/7 is tough. One has asd.Im 45. Is this it? Like many of us, I miss my family and friends but am exhausted from the kids . My youngest is an emotional
Mess since his Dad left and rarely leaves my side .
Is this it for me? I can't see through the fog right now.

This may be a cliche but this too shall pass. I’m not in your situation but have felt the way you describe. I can only reach out across the internet and wish you well. I can also say you can come out the other side - make this an opportunity to do things in life you could or would not with your husband. It’s hard to move on but it’s been done - so can you. It’s harder with kids but they are also his responsibility so when lockdown is over make sure you get space and time to create that you life for yourself. Your ex/husband has to take on sins of the physical and emotional burden of the kids. Take care and keep reaching out.

• some not sins!

Don't be sad. I feel for you. You will realise in time that your husband dud you no favours and your life will be richer without him. Take time to take stock and honestly 45 life just begins (I'm 44) Your children will adjust. Be kind to yourself. Take care xxx

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Thanks. I feel
Hopelessness right now but you are right, it will pass and I will get some
Happiness soon