I’ve got to a point where I’ve had enough of thinking about it and reading about it, thinking about who’s fault was it. Looking at my battle scars, feeling sorry for myself.
Who did what when, trying to sift through 12 years of crap. It’s impossible when you’ve distanced yourself from the event. Nothing actually makes any sense, it’s just a shit storm. I don’t like my husband, I don’t want to go back, he’s a s**t dangerous father, he totally sucks all the joy out of life, so what more do I need to know?
I’m thinking of just putting the whole dam relationship in a mental “f*k that s*t box” and move on. I’ve learnt a very large lesson and discovered more about myself. Keeping going over it is stopping me from moving on. Is it healthy to just let it go without getting 100% closure? Can you even really get closure from these kind of relationships?
I’m thinking of it like a long term illness, I’ve got the scars and now the all clear. So do you go over and over with why me or just enjoy the fact that you have the all clear now? I’m only 37 and hopefully I have a lot of years ahead of me for my situation to change for the positive, not that I don’t have positives now.