We have a child. He's emailing ex. I'm so confused

[Scarednurse]

Please help, I'm new but been lurking a long time.
I dunno if I'm completely over reacting.
I have a 18month old with my boyfriend. Got pregnant early in the relationship we have had our challenges. We are not engaged. He was engaged to his ex but they split just over 3 years ago. He hasn't spoken to her since. Afew days ago I seen that he emailed her. It was him apologising for causing her hurt at the end of the relationship and how he was in a really bad place at this time. He said "he really misses her, will always care for her and that will never go away". He also asked about where shes working (they are both in healthcare) and that he Hope's she safe, etc with everything that's going on. She got married last year which he knows and she lives in another country so hes never going to see her again. I'm worried he regrets them breaking up but then I think maybe hes just reaching out as hes worried with everything that's going on with coronavirus. I'm really not sure what to make of this. Does it seem like he still has feelings for her? Why is he reaching out after all this time and if he had feelings why bother when she lives, and is from, another country and she is married to someone else. I don't understand his intentions or agenda.

i’d go nuclear, he’s shitting on your relationship. corona doesn’t give anyone an excuse for shitty behaviour

I don't understand women who feel "disrespected" because their partner experiences tenderness and affection towards other people. Your self worth really should not be predicated on someone else's feelings, and love isn't a pie, it doesn't run out if too many people have a slice.

Ask yourself,
Do you love him?
Do you feel loved by him?
Do you love yourself?
Are you happy in your life today?

If the answer is no to any of those questions, then deal with that.

What he says in his private emails to someone who was a huge part of his life at one time, is a red herring. Also if you can't stand the idea that your partner has a whole life of his own, and a whole inner life of emotions that don't necessarily include you, then don't read his emails ffs.