I posted a few weeks ago about not being happy in my long term relationship live together, no children or marriage ( 7 years ) I'm 26. I still love him and like being around him/ want sex I just feel like i can't be happy with him forever because he won't change?
He won't change and start getting up early this annoys me as he is always laying in bed ( gets up at 2pm onwards) I am up at 7ish ( this is during quarantine) so he should be going to bed and waking up same time as me but isn't. Makes me feel disconnected,
Also the sex is always me initiating and I try to do it random times of the day for fun/ spontaneous and he says we will do it later...
I nearly ended it with him a few days ago and my dad was coming to pick me up ( I know not essential travel but he knew I was upset) and I was crying on the stairs he is too and I feel horrible pain inside and I look at him and it's all love and I think I can't and why am I doing this? Like I can't breathe and think I'm being stupid causing myself all this pain when I don't really want to leave.
Then the next day I'm back to square one thinking he won't change? Or worrying i could be wasting my time with him/ life?
Really not sure what to do or think. So hard when I still like him, love him more than the flaws?
Just needed voice it all!! Anyone been in similar situation, I think it's because there is no right or wrong answer and I don't want to do something I can't undo xxX