Feel like I’m losing my mind

[Charisma22]

I have a partner of 3 years.
We have a child together who’s not even a year old.
On and off he’s been unfaithful and crossing boundaries that aren’t that hard to follow.
It’s come to the point where I’m questioning whether I’d actually give a damn if he wasn’t in my life anymore? Is that bad?
He constantly looks at other girls on social media, in the past signed up to chat sites under different names, searching up the same girls on his Facebook, liking provocative pictures and following provocative/fan me accounts????? Like, AM I MISSING THE POINT HERE?
In a relationship..not happy? Feel the need to look at other women on MORE than one occasion..THEN LEAVE?

His “I’m sorry” is getting boring now, you’re almost 30, with a child, and acting like a pubescent teenager!

Give a girl some sanity please

He’s not going to leave you. Staying with you suits him right now.

If you are going to stay with him you need to accept that he will never be faithful.

Your only other option is to leave him.

What do you want ?

To be loved.

He says he loves me, says he pays for everything, so I think he just sees me as a babysitter to his son.
He doesn’t appreciate anything that I do. Apparently being a mother is easy and I just sit on my arse all day...but he’s in and out so he literally sees nothing that I go through.
I don’t have a sex drive since having a child, and I feel bad for my partner..but that shouldn’t lead him to overstep boundaries if he loves me right? Or is it my fault that he’s like that way he is because we don’t have sex as much as he’d like??

I’m going crazy

But, why are you waiting for him to leave OP - he won't. He's got you where he wants you - he can be unfaithful and mess you around and you keep taking it. You let him.

he doesn't love you - he wouldn't cheat if he does. Look at his actions not his words, and instead of waiting for him to leave or to change, take the power. Walk.

You can’t make him love you. If by that you mean ‘treat you in a kind and loving way ‘.

Your only options are to stay and put up or go.

He isnt even pretending he is decent though, so dont know why youre going crazy about it. He is being clear. He has no respect for you and doesnt value your role in your child’s life at all.

So, the only thing you need to focus on is your exit plan. When do you go back to work? Who’s name is your current house in? Can you afford it on your own? What are you other options?

@CalleighDoodle

I went back to work 3 months after my little one being born, but in his eyes I still don’t do anything. I’ve just he laid off from work due to the cover-19 situation, so have no money whatsoever to even think about getting my own place

IMO the boundaries have totally been overstepped and more than once.. He doesn't have respect for you and honestly I couldn't be with someone like that. It's emotionally hard as it is to be stay at home parent and he says you sit on your arse all day... No way i would accept that.
Bin him!!!

This situation isn't forever. Detach emotionally. Your relationship is over if you want a relationship where you're respected and an equal. Look for a different job, it won't be easy but shops are hiring or wait it out but leave. He's a dick

This is my first thread and I already feel like a weights been lifted off my shoulders just being able to write all this