Non physical abuse

[wearenotmanyweareone]

We are self isolating due to coughs. My 'partner'
And three kids all under 6.
A week ago promises were made that I naievely hoped would be true.
Last night..boom. Nasty is back.
Non stop comments, all lies, all cruel. I'm shaking with partly rage, partly heartache.
I've called womens aid and it was busy
We are joint renters
I have no idea what to do. I'm literally trapped in hell right now.
to anyone at home with a nasty bastard 😔

The things he says are not true, I know it’s hard not to let them in when you hear it over and over though 😔 When you’ve got through this, hold on to this feeling when he’s not being so bad, remember what he’s really like, and use the power of this feeling to make some changes in your life for the better. Imaging being with someone who calls you beautiful and amazing as often as he says mean things to you.

One of the worst days of my life so far.
Me putting the toilet lid down has sparked it all. Well, no. Me pointing out that it is Mother's Day. He forgot. He felt guilty I suppose, but guess his guilt is my fault.
Up and down like a yo-yo with his temper all day. Made a show of crying about his supposed depression. Not a tear came out.
Culminating I'm asking me if I was going to buck up and do the things he wants or he would leave. I said putting the toilet seat lid down is just hygienic.
Stormed out, packed his stuff (a lot more said) said 'bye kids' stuck his finger up at me. I waited then followed with the intention of locking the door behind.
He didn't go. He ended up lunging at me suddenly to try and scare me. Said I was a dirty little slag
Fucking slag .
All of a sudden decided he was taking everything we own (I wasn't doing what he wanted I wasn't begging him to stay etc) I said if he continued to be physically intimidating or scaring the kids I would have to call police.
The kids were actually in another room oblivious but knew something was up.
Locked himself in bathroom for a long time..I know I was supposed to be all concerned but I played with kids and checked they were ok.
He's reappeared sheepish. Supposedly sad.
It's got worse and worse over time. I've been spat at. Had a table kicked towards me. He threatened to kill himself in front of our son. And today lunges at me. Twice actually but the second time he really went for it.
Self isolating as we are all ill. I called 101 but hung up cos it didn't seem an emergency and they must be so busy.
These poor kids. He has to go. It was hard before this virus stuff, I have no idea what to do now.
Terrible time
Sorry for rambling if anyone reads this. Can't tell anyone in real life

This has been happening since November time. Every day or two takes fury at some supposed offence. He's been cross almost constantly for so long.

Call the police and woman aid. Be strong and take Care. Get out with your kids 🌺

Call.the.police.now. He belongs in chains

Well so much for peace. Kids are asleep. He had been calm and then started messaging me from another room he was mad I didn't want dinner. Says with the tablets he's on he needs to eat.
I said yes that's fine he can eat whenever but that I had been sick and also was shocked about today so not hungry. Stupidly thought there might be a hint of remorse.
Said it was my fault of course and that he was no longer depressed he would be leaving 'very soon'
I said please just do it. Before kids wake up.
He blocked me from his phone. Sorry, my phone that is in my name paid for by me that I let him have.
I don't want kids to go through another day of this shit. They love him loads. He's using them as a way of hurting me. His words don't massively affect me anymore so he goes for insulting my disabled mum, being cruel about the dog or toying with the kids feelings.

As I type it out I'm seeing it absolutely clearly. I'm trying to find the bloody strength to boot him out but the kids are here constantly especially now with the isolation.
His brother got arrested for similar a while ago and I remember how horrible it was for their kids

Call the police.

He sounds like a piece of shit.

Spitting at you? I wouldn't do that to my worst enemy let alone a partner I was supposed to love.

Get rid now, he’s an abuser mentally my ex was like this, .