I'm a 26 year old first time pregnant with my partner who I've been with for just over 1,5 years. We've been an instant match with plenty of physical and emotional attraction from day 1 and we both knew we wanted a baby together (I have never in my life felt like I'd have a child with any of my partners before but I do have an abusive background from my teenage hood and that has put me in a very bad mindset for a long time.) My partner has turned out to be extremely insecure and the only thing I can think of is that he thinks karma is coming for him. He had 2 long relationships and has cheated way too many times for me to even count or follow. I've never seen this as a threat to me because I am not insecure, I know if someone wants to cheat they will, regardless. However he has poisoned my mind with constant arguments, speculations and with trying to control me after just about half a year together. I used to live in a flatshare with my friends, I've moved out and in with him and his family with the intention of having our place since day 1 (around 6 months of our relationship) and this is yet to be done... so fast forward to January this year when I've lost my shit and packed my bags after having the same old argument of me wanting to have my alone time in the gym, because apparently I can't? I've moved out and decided that I'm done sacrificing myself. Didn't know that at the time I was 3 weeks pregnant. My hormones were obviously over the roof but that isn't my excuse, I know I wanted to end the arguments and the constant promises around us moving. He obviously was sad, devastated, told me he knows he isn't fair, shouldn't have told me all the bad things, he does trust me but it's just hard because he is insecure... at the end of january I found out i was over 3 weeks pregnant. Although we did broke up, he constantly said he wants to work this out but also argued with me quiet a lot. When I found out, I was really happy and I knew that this was a sign for us to sort our shit out and just get on with the life we wanted to live together, but with our baby. He was so happy when he found out, so is everyone else (our families) - but I feel like I'm just over it. I don't know if I've got any love/emotion left towards my partner, I've been picturing myself moving on and meeting other people, people who aren't insecure, people who I know would never ever try to control me. I am worried shitless that I'm about to have a child with the wrong person. He is so caring, 100% ready to give all his love to our child, put together a shopping list to our baby, saving his money like it's the end of the world to move out with me ASAP. But I still don't trust it. I have no idea if he's going to actually keep his word and be okay, or go back to his horrible self and argue with me over and over again because I have my own thoughts and opinion. I am not a needy person, I am very logical and practical, my brain is always stronger than my emotions and I have been feeling like this is a bad idea and that I should leave. I should stop this while I can and just be myself again. No compromise, no frustration, just me. I know it sounds horrible from my part and selfish, but if someone understands and can relate, I'd really want to hear your opinions. Thank you.