Once you’ve left an abusive relationship and know you are over it, don’t want to go back, can’t stand them, relieved, thank your lucky stars, What did you do with that lost feeling you have inside. I guess it’s a co-dependant feeling. I only know how to do things for him, doing things for myself feels weird and just wrong. My husband created reasons for me to need him, situations for me to fix for him. He just wanted me to think I needed him and he loved to feel that I needed him. He kept me weak so that I needed him to fix me. How do you get that feeling to go away? I can’t stand him but deep inside my brain it wants me to think I can’t do it without him. I hope that makes sense.