Hi just really looking for some friendly advice and hopefully people in my situation. Is anyone planning a baby but really scared at the same time ? I have a teenager from another relationship. Been with my now partner for 9 years he has no children . He is very broody and we are trying for a baby but I am petrified. All my old insecurities are coming back . They are always there in my head but I think being pregnant and vulnerable is stressing me out . I went through hell with my ex . Constant cheating . Mental and physical abuse . Even give me a disease when I was pregnant. I know deep down he wouldn't do that to me but then there's the little voice in my head making me think that he might . And I'd would be stuck pregnant and not be able to do anything and maybe not cope mentally. I really want a baby with him but I can't move past this . What if I get pregnant and totally crack up again . I have gotten pregnant a few years back and went in to such a bad place mentally that all I could think of was a termination. I then had a miscarriage at 11 weeks and I was sad but horribly relieved . I think I might need councilling x