Haven't the strength for this

[Fuckmyliferightnow]

Tomorrow I am seeing a solicitor for advice re splitting with DP, I'm paying £180 to find out about PR, benefits, my rights as a parent, his rights and our joint home. It covers quite a lot.

Please help me to think of more questions I will need to ask, I need as much i fo as possible because my lying, gaslighting, manipulative, porn addicted bully of a partner will make my life a living hell and will crank up the guilt trips regarding our DC. He knows how to play my guilty side, so I need ammo and strength.
Please help me, I care too much and I'm scared to make the move.

Is FP freedom project OP?
Hope you're ok

Seems to me like you are truly locked into this man. It's hard to stand up to them and somehow they get right under your skin and you can't resist the manipulation. It's insidious. Hope you win

I am resisting I see straight through it.

Of course I see straight through it and one minute I'm angry and determined, then I think about how it will go when I tell him and I just can't go through with it. He does have a power over me, in the form of guilt.

Ahh the guilt. I know it well. It is so much harder than I thought it would be to completely bresk ties. The fear and the guilt run deep. It is do-able tho. So they say. But you really have to want it

I do but I have to get everything set up first so will take time. Waiting for house to come up in my area too. I'm just worried my amnesia will set back in as he carries on being charming.