I've become depressed in my life and it's obviously affecting my relationship. I'm currently on a waiting list for therapy but in the mean time I'm just seeking some advice.
I feel so uninspired with everyday life. I'm trying to help myself by attending social support groups and trying out new hobbies/interests but it doesn't feel enough.
I find myself envying other people I know and how much happiness they seem to have. One of my old school friends is currently travelling around the world, going on adventures, meeting all kinds of people and I feel so jealous.
I'm nearly 30 years old it feels impossible for me to just take off like that and leave behind my job, family, boyfriend, pets etc. I only have £3k in savings and I don't know if I'd feel right spending all of that on travel and then coming to nothing when I'm back.
But at the same time, the monotomy of my everyday life is destroying my mental health. I'm working in finance (a fairly new job) and I'm doing really well (getting bonuses etc) but it's not fulfilling. I'm always trying to distract myself with local events and nights out with friends but afterwards I feel empty. In the UK, there's not always a lot of sunshine and that makes me feel miserable but its not like I can afford to just up and leave.
I just want to feel like there's more to life than this. I want to feel inspired, adventurous and I want to feel the sun on my face. But I know life can't always be like that. I know we all have to wait for that yearly holiday abroad (if we're lucky) to feel that way. It just sucks :(