Torn. Do i dont i?

[Unnamedguy]

So ive been in a relationship for 9 months next week. Known her and been good friends with her all my life. Honestly from the bottom of my heart love her more than i could ever describe. Weve been bombarded with every relationship challenge since we got together and still strong.these including arguable infidelity (conflict in opinions over whether it was or not). i really want to let it go but it wont get out my head! In my opinion i should have left buy phsycally cant imagine being without her.
Weve booked wedding and i really really want it but im scared beyond belief and dont know why
Shes just fell pregnant while on the injection and same again it makes me sooo happy but still has me scared.
My heart trusts her but my head doesnt and i feel awfull for it.

This seems very messy. The first year of a relationship isn't a true test of its ability to last. It's fun and exciting, everything is a "first" together and it's often fuelled by passion. It's only once you've been together longer and know each other much better (not just the version of yourself that you want to portray) that you actually know how you really feel about each other and the relationship. It's too soon to be making these kind of life long commitments. That's not to say they never work out when made this early in a relationship, but I feel it's too much of an unknown at this stage and too much of a risk, especially for the unborn child.

Do you know with 100% certainty that she is pregnant? Is she aware of how you were feeling about the cheating in your other thread? Could she have felt as though she was losing you and thought that a pregnancy would be a way to keep you?

I think you need to take some time thinking about what you really want. And thinking about how you can be a positive part of the baby's life if you don't remain together. If there is going to be baby, then that is the priority.