Dated a guy for 4 years in my early 20s - he was it...the one...however, he wasn't ready for that in his life - so we broke up. I would have moved heaven and earth for that man.
Fast forward 1.5 yr after we broke up and I met current husband. We got married, I thought about the ex over the years but never made contact. January 2019 my dad passed from cancer and all I wanted was to reach out to him. So I did. May 2019 we had lunch. It was a dream. So wonderful. We talked, then he sent me an email confessing feelings, realizations, etc - he realized I was the one. I got away. He'd give anything to fix it. In my grief and depression I continued an emotional affair with him and by November 2019 I was separated from my husband, but he didn't know about the ex. I was torn. The ex is in a relationship but confesses his heart is with me. I love my husband, we have been married going on 3 years and have a little girl together, but I'm not as happy as I know I could be. We don't have much in common and he is very dominate/alpha. But I cry when I think of divorce. We are moving back in together and I've cut off communications with the ex but I know I still love him and think about our life together. Advice please....