Hello & it’s taken a lot of courage to open up about my marriage problems so please be patient with me.
I’ve not opened up to anyone about the following information.
Let me start from the beginning...... rewind back to Xmas night 2018 & as I washed the dishes my husband (who I love with all my heart and soul) told me that he doesn’t love me anymore out of nowhere. I just stared out the window as the tears flowed down my face. Never in a million yrs ever expected it from him . So I was in shock & said absolutely nothing as my kids (20 &16 were in the house).
That’s the day in my memory that has changed my life. Over the last Yr & a bit ....I have taken to the roads walking & lost over 5 st in weight as I’ve kept everything inside & not told anyone of my worries.
Ye probably have heard the same old story but my husband has continued to live in the house ever since. I’ve endured over 15 months of hell... stonewalling emotional panic & mental abuse displayed by him to me.
Me.... I’ve kept a fake smile on my face & carried on. But I’m dying inside especially as he has told me “I think it’s unfair to make love to you as I don’t love you “ so heartbreaking to hear those words & they haunt me daily. He has led his own life ever since & I’ve said nor done anything to aggravate him. My kids & everyone else from the outside think that all is ok.
He told me yesterday that his feelings haven’t changed but why does he continue to stay in the family home.
Maybe I’m a fool or doormat but I really need to hear advice from others.
Any help or advice would be appreciated big time.
Feel so alone at the moment.