I met this guy in November 2019 through work and we hit it off instantly we both have similar lifestyles whereby we travel alot and we also have alot in common and can chat for hours, he's married with 2 kids and I'm in a 6 year relationship no kids. I wasn't initially attracted to him but I just really liked him as a person because we got on well as friends so we decided to start hanging out more often and go for a coffee or food after work. We would email occasionally to see how each other is but nothing major, then things started to get confusing as we did start kissing each other after meeting up which happened on afew occasions so it did start to feel more like a date than just meeting as mates. We decided to have a chat about it face-to-face so he came round my house as we both didn't want any mixed signals, he told me he'd fallen for me early on but made it clear he didn't want it to go anywhere and that he just sees me as a good friend, I admitted I liked him more than a friend too but I think it was because we'd be spending too much time together. I told him we shouldnt see each other again, not even as friends because we don't want to lead each other on which he was really sad about, he said he didnt want to loose me as a friend. Basically we stopped contact but guess what.. It didnt last.. Somehow we started emailing again but he'd always initiate the conversation by asking how I'm doing. Anyway, One month later, and it's back to before, but we are seeing each other more, at least 2 times a week, but it's not just for a coffee.. we've started doing stuff together like cinema, bowling, spending a day at a hotel using the spa (we have not slept together at all) and he even invited me round his house to hang out. Ive tried to cut down the emailing again but if I don't reply within a day or two he gets suspicious and worried and will email again as we usually speak everyday. I'm not sure what to do? I can't make out if we ARE just close friends or he has deeper feelings but just doesn't want to admit it. We kissed again the other day after our day out but afew days later when I went round his to chill nothing happened so I'm not sure what he's after... I do have feelings for him still but I don't want to cut him off completely but I also don't want to ask him and get shut down and it'll make it awkward.