"D"H talks to me like something on the bottom of his shoe. There's no love or affection in our marriage, and I honestly think I would be happier and it would be easier if I went it alone.
But we gave DD1, and she's a real daddy's girl. I'm scared about how the split would affect her, but I'm also scared to have her growing up in a household where her parents are always arguing.
Financially it would be difficult. I love the area we live in, it's great for kids, but there's no way I could afford anywhere near here on my own. I'd be looking away about 30 miles away to find anything I could afford, and that's in a not very nice area. I can't drive so would maybe have to change the job that I love, or have a very long commute on the bus. No family nearby, so if I did move back in with my parents then I'd definitely have to give up my job.
I'm just scared to take that first step because I don't know if I would be able to do it. Honestly, DD is the only thing that keeps me going and if it wasn't for her I'd get out of the marriage by ending it all, but I don't want to leave her or put her through that.
I'm fed up of being so unhappy and of being treated like shit and feeling worthless. But I don't know how I'd cope on my own. Is this it? Is this my life now forever?