So I went on 4 dates with someone who I met online, had amazing chemistry, really attracted to each other and bounce off each other etc (we’ve slept together every time we met apart from the last time) . to be honest he hasn’t got a lot going for him without being rude - been in prison, waiting to get his license back, think he might Be involved in dodgy stuff, never been on holiday etc at 28
On our fourth date he asked me to send my location when I was on my way which I did - and then over the course of the night he was being really paranoid saying he put it in an app called waze and it showed me already in an area near him (which I wasn’t!) and he started questioning and accusing me of going out before I met him and if I was seeing someone he knows etc. He then didn’t believe me about me being out for a meal the night before and suggested I’d been quiet and maybe I’d met someone else. He then was accusing and questioning me about me not seeing my friend the day after. He also said if he found out a woman had slept with someone else the night before meeting him he would “pin her down and make her eat dog shit”!! Anyway I eventually left his house although it took a little while for him to unlock his door to let me go because he was getting stressed and wanted to talk to me. He was saying someone had made a fake Instagram profile of him and this is why he was suspicious etc. Even when I left he was texting me random stuff suggesting I was going round someone he knows house. Anyway turns out he was coked up to his eyeballs which I didn’t realise at first (I’m not against this but not if it makes someone act paranoid like that!) he sent loads of messages over the next few days and I eventually blocked him... then he started on Instagram I replied to quite a few then eventually blocked on that too... all quiet until Saturday he messages me off an old Instagram to which I weakly end up replying to! I got sucked in again and started talking he called me and explained it was all the drugs he’d never do it again show me he’s not like that usually and would treat me well etc and to give him one more chance to prove himself cos he really liked me (I also really liked him and feel I’m well over Invested after such a short period of time!)
Why am I even talking to him and considering it? He’s showed me who he is hasn’t he? What is wrong with me? I just really enjoyed the chemistry and connection!
Why am I setting the bar so low?!