I am married to a wonderful man, with whom I have two beautiful children. We are in our mid thirties and have been together since we were teenagers. We have been completely faithful to one another our whole relationship, however I seem to have constant crushes on other men. They’ve always fizzled out and I’ve never intended on being unfaithful - I think it tends to happen when the man in question starts being nice to me; I sort of turn them into an obsessive crush that can last for months or even years in some cases. They’ve always been on friends, but then the crush goes away when I see them less frequently.
However, my most recent crush has been getting progressively worse over the last year as it is someone I work with so I am with him every day. On days when he interacts with me a lot I am absolutely on a high and look for signs that he likes me too (I would never cheat on my husband but I crave/long for the attention, maybe due to low self esteem). And on days where I don’t see him as much or he is ‘off’ with me, I can be quite down in the dumps.
I have a few mental health issues and when I objectively view my pattern of thinking it is clear that I need therapy to resolve this. But I was hoping someone had some advice on how to deal with these crushes? Is it normal to constantly have another crush on the go throughout a long term loving relationship?