My mum is chronically unwell both mentally and physically - depression since I can ever remember, irrational behaviour, if I don’t see her for a few weeks she will cry to me over how nobody cares and she will eventually be found dead in a corner on her own ☹️ She is also can barely walk, she gets PIP and my father does everything for her.
Recently she was just so awful to me regarding childcare - I’m 17+5 weeks pregnant with my first child and she was guilt tripping me and making me feel like the worst daughter ever as I stated all been well the child would be going to nursery 2 days a week - she is adamant she could have my child and even though realistically she couldn’t at all - when I tried to explain she just sobbed and said some unfair and irrational things and put the phone down on me. The woman is actually giving me shit for babysitting a child that’s not even born yet.
Then lately a friend - who I used to be best fiends with but then I have seen nothing of for well over a year has started to bother with me all of a sudden, when I speak to her she all but gloats over her perfect life and I just feel like telling her to fuck off. I honestly don’t want to hear about her been happy - this is a massive issue and I know it. She has nothing that I don’t have, I’m not envious of her because I know how good I do have it, but I just can’t cope with anyone happy or gloaty. I’m dreading seeing her, I don’t want to buy then I know I need to, but I don’t want to deal with anyone happy right now. I don’t want people to be miserable but literally everyone is winding me up.
Before a found out I was pregnant I was on 60mg of fluoxetine and 50mg amatryptaline. I don’t really want to take any medication now with been pregnant. I don’t really know what to do ☹️