Hey guys sorry this is going to be a bit long winded just wanted advice.. I met a girl not through very nice circumstances as she was a nurse in the hospital looking after a person I’m very close to that was passing away... soon as I seen her I felt something our eyes connected like something I never had before... we always used to talk while she was working and she always made my relative laugh and she actually only felt safe with this nurse even noticed she was picking up extra shifts! one day I was walking out as she was finishing she asked for my number to keep in touch I said sure so I gave it her then a few weeks after my relative passed away she messaged to see how I was doing.. It started off normal chatting then got a bit deeper I really started to fall for her I started meeting her For about a week and chatting for hours while together nothing ever happened apart from a kiss(which she acted strange about after) then she dropped a bomb shell and told me she’s got a boyfriend who she’s not happy with and that she doesn’t want to be with him.. I thought fair enough as we have all been there.. but then after this she said she needed to leave me alone and sort her head out (I was a little hurt and felt used tbh was gutted) so a month passed and then I got a message out the blue saying I was on her mind she wanted to text days ago but just didn’t.. anyway she said she needed to talk in person I met her and she told me she’s finished with her boyfriend and that she thinks that if she got to no me she could end up loving me(we always happy when together) she told me she moved out and needed space to see what she wanted so we was meeting everyday for another week nothing happened again just a kiss... but then she was telling me she liked me but she feels guilty for leaving someone that loves her (which if that was me if I felt so strong about someone I would leave and wouldn’t look back) Then the last day I met her she was telling me she wanted to be with me one day and that he’s not right for her she wanted to find out what it was that we both had/felt! Anyway next morning she texted saying I think I need to leave you alone as I don’t no what to do but I also don’t want to lose you ! I sort of flipped because this is twice now she’s picked me up and dropped me once again I felt used and hurt because out of my whole past I actually fell hard for her I really like her In fact I think I love her.. but I flipped because I was hurt and I told her I’m not being a side peice or Coming second best and that she needed to leave me alone barring in mind I was grieving which she was aware of ! She knew what she was doing I think.. I told her if she doesn’t leave me alone I will tell her boyfriend because if she can’t be honest to her self that’s no fair on him or me because we’re both getting hurt then I called her a slag I admit that is wrong but it’s because I feel so hurt !! Anyway she’s blocked me and I think she’s still with him it’s a month down line still nothing.. I just feel like theses feelings are not going away I feel stuck in a shit place thought of never finding out what we had actually makes me feel sick Because I no we could of been something I have never had feelings like this in my whole life what should I do ? Please don’t be harsh it’s took me alot to ask for advice thank you for reading