Why do I feel sad about leaving my ex who I can't stand.

[YorkshireMummyof1]

I split with my ex husband last year, I don't like him, he assaulted me whilst I was asleep and I am now in a loving relationship with a really kind guy.

I'm just going through my work inbox as it has 1000 emails I need to file. Going back to April time there are emails from during my lunch hour where we're talking about me needing to pick DS up from school. Then May after I left where we're talking about who needs to take holiday to cover childcare.

It's choked me up and I don't know why.
I don't like him, the only contact I have with him is when I'm dropping DS off for a weekend. I'm in a loving relationship but whenever I see old conversations that aren't even "loving" there just functional (and its post split) I get really choked up.

Is this normal?

Yes. You're mourning the life you thought you were going to have, and that you invested so much energy in. Not the twatty ex!

What @MyOwnSummer said.

Thank goodness, I’ll admit I was confused and worried that my feelings of sadness were because I missed HIM. Right well in that case I’ll buckle up and get on with it. I’ll just accept the sadness when it turns up and I’m sure it will fade!

We all build up our dream future when we meet the love of our life (or so we thought at the time). When it all ends we mourn that dream, not the person who turned out to be a bastard

Yes, I still feel sad at thoughts of my ex even though he was abusive too. It's quite rightly the life you thought you'd have rather than what it actually was.