Hi, I keep putting this question off but here goes.
I’ve been with my husband now for 3 years and we haven’t had the best of times together so far. We have 3 children (2 together and I have 1 from previous relationship).
I guess I just want another opinion on our ‘marriage’ as all I’m thinking is I’m being used and I’m only needed when it’s convenient to him.
The only time he really speaks to me is when he needs or wants something and I’m constantly feeling unloved unwanted and down. I’m so sick of feeling like this. My DH doesn’t show any kind of love or affection unless he wants me to do something for him.
We have sex like once a month maybe longer and he says he just doesn’t want it, even if I initiate it he rejects me. I feel like I need to have sex to feel wanted and loved. Is that wrong of me? I do feel like he isn’t physically attracted to me anymore. He’s told me in previous relationships he had sex every night so I’m guessing it has to be me and he’s not attracted to me anymore.
He literally doesn’t touch me, we don’t kiss, no hand holding, nothing. I feel like it’s a sham of a marriage like it’s all lies.
He can’t even have a conversation with me because he's either on SM ignoring my existence or falling asleep. I could be talking to him and he will go to sleep. He can’t even get through a film without going to sleep. Is it just me?
I’ve told him how I feel on a number of occasions, he says he doesn’t know why he is with me or I force him to stay with me or that there must still be something there for him to stay. Some times he’ll say he knows he’s an idiot with me but he never makes any effort.
It’s driving me insane. What should I do?