My marriage is breaking up. We made the decision together last May but it is clear to me that H would rather we stay together. We got drunk the other night and he tried to hold my hand. When I wouldn't, he got angry and kept saying 'but you're my wife!' I felt so sorry for him. I have come around to the idea of us not being together forever anymore but I don't think he has.
I guess we were both at fault but the catalyst for me was the way I was being treated at the time. I'm sure I annoyed him too but he would use crass language towards me and be very hard on me. It got to be too much. Since we've decided to separate, he has been so much nicer. He is a good person but I'm too far gone.
Any of you who have gone through this, how did you cope with the guilt? I know, in a way, I shouldn't feel it. I have been faithful etc. but it's like I can feel his emotions as well as my own and I just want to make everything better for him.