I posted a few months back under a different name. I had been with my husband for 25 years in what I considered a great marriage. One day I saw him click out of an unfamiliar email account when I walked past his office and he was so so flustered I knew something was wrong. While looking at all the email providers to try and find this account I stumbled across his google account and saw he had been searching escorts and hook up sites for years. I have since been through a year’s worth of phone bills (all I could get) and found texts to a local escort.
I kicked him out and he is living in a flat although comes round a lot to see the kids. He still swears blind that he didn’t go through with it but I obviously don’t believe a word of it.
I just don’t seem to be getting any better, I think about it all the time and wonder how he could destroy our perfect family for this. I feel like the most unloveable person in the world.
I am going to book some counselling sessions soon but just wondered if anyone else has been through this and can tell me it will get better. It just seems such a pointless thing to throw our family away for, and I would have thought he was the last person in the world to do something like this. I miss the man I thought he was so much.
Thank you for taking the time to read if you got this far!