I don’t even know how to start this, been with DH for 6 years married for 4, have 2 young DD aged 4 and 2. Throughout the entire history of our relationship DH has seemingly had a problem when it came to alcohol in the sense that for all he wouldn’t drink often the times he didn’t seem to know how to stop and would sometimes carry on for days staying at friends etc but all the while messaging me telling me how bad of a person I am. It’s as if he needs to justify his actions somehow by doing this, like well your crap you make me drink sort of thing. Dv has been an issue but the latest incident happened in October where he actually hit me in front of both our children several times. Police called as were social services and he is no longer at home with us. Until Xmas when I stupidly said he could spend it with us, only for him to cause a huge argument about nothing purely so he could go back out on the drink. This was 4 days ago. All I have had since are abusive messages which I don’t reply too. I know in my heart of hearts he is no good for me or our children if we were to stay together. I no longer trust him or can rely on him in any way, there has been many other things happen over the years to lead me to feel like this. This isn’t just a one off. Now here’s the thing, for all our marriage is over and he won’t be returning to the family home, I know it is best for everyone but why do I feel so guilty and bad about this? I feel so sad. Any advice, comments, suggestions are appareciated.