After Xmas I have all these memories resurfacing of my mother being physically violent with me. It's like I buried them somehow. I've been aware of how difficult she is, how angry and controlling she is and how scared she made me feel during my childhood but the memories of the physical abuse are only coming to the surface now. It's funny I kind of buried them but I did know about them, it's only now I'm realizing quite how fucked up it all was and how damaged I likely am because of this.
What do I do with this? I was in therapy for a while which helped a lot. Maybe I need to go back. How do you cope with trauma? I really feel this is a breakthrough that I've acknowledged it now and I'm not repressing it so much. I know I need to heal I just don't know how.