I studied and work in a male dominated field and have 3 close brothers and therefore have been surrounded by men all my life. 90% of my friends are men.
I can click and get on with most guys easily, but I struggle so much to see any guy I meet as any more than a friend. I think it's because I automatically go to pally mode like I do with all my other friends and that's it, it's like talking to my brothers. I'm pretty sure they see me in the exact same light also.
I've only had one proper relationship in my life where there was an initial attraction/excitement and I've never felt that before or since (this was about 10 years ago), so I know it's possible! Other than that I'm just not feeling it. I'm really open to have another relationship as well so it's not that I'm not ready, and I come across so many different men in my life, but it's just not happening!
I don't really get any "sexual" attention from guys either (or I'm blind to it, but I don't think so). There's certain men in my life I can speak to for hours on end and have a lot in common, but it's 100% platonic and never been anything else.
It's at the point that it's kinda getting me down and making me question my life career choice? I feel like if my personal relationships and work relationships weren't all mostly men then the process of interacting with men would be more exciting to me and maybe more would come of it? Does that make any sense? Is that stupid?
I don't know I think I'm stuck in "I'm going to be forever alone" stage at the moment. I get out, I socialise, I come across loads of men, no sparks ever happen.
Any advice how to get out this rut?