Hi..hope you guys can help. My boyfriend and I have been together for 2 years.
Recently things have been very rocky and we have hardly seen each other since October. I found out he was using drugs and acting badly towards me. We still stayed in contact. He keeps saying he misses me and he went on a family holiday over Christmas where he said he was working things out. So he came back I went to see him and I could tell he was high that morning..but I didn't want to cause a scene. Then he fell asleep. The whole time I sat feeling awkward and I left after a while. Then he rang me to ask if I wanted to get a takeaway, I said I'd head down.
I got there within half an hour with the beers he asked for..and he either wasn't in or ignoring me. Wouldn't answer his phone even though he was active on whatsapp. So I sent some nasty texts, couldnt help it.
Not heard from him since and he's not been online since, that was 2 days ago.
I'm so upset. Why keep trying to talk to me saying he misses me only to behave like this? I feel bad for sending shitty texts but I was so mad. If he really wanted to work it out surely he would be trying, or else leave me alone to get over him.
He says I have pushed him away in recent months but it's because I tried to enforce boundaries, i e the drug taking.
We're constantly arguing over how his friends/ drugs come first, yet he does nothing about it.