I’m feeling so lost and mixed up today. I was with my boyfriend for just over two years, first 6 months great and after that it’s been such a rocky road. Good times and bad times and if I’m honest probably more bad. He’s been very manipulative and verbally abusive towards me and recently he has needed a lot of support for a personal situation and I’ve been there for him 100%, I would have done anything for him. To cut a long story short he was drinking yesterday watching the football and his language was getting a bit unacceptable so I reminded him
This is my house and I’d appreciate you not speaking like that in my house, he took the total huff so I left him downstairs watching darts and I went back up stairs to watch Netflix. He then came up asking for a set of darts which he didn’t need right then and there so was just being petty in my eyes. I then came downstairs and just asked him why he was being such a prat which then just resulted in arguments and I said if you’re not happy just take your stuff and go, he refused as he had been drinking so I said I don’t care go get someone to come get you but you won’t speak to me like that in my own house. So he phoned his mum she was coming to get him he then asked for all his stuff to be sorted so I started getting it sorted and then went upstairs to get the rest. That’s when things got ugly and he was all in my personal space intimidating me, tapping my cheeks with his hands in a patronising manner, idle threats saying he is going to expose me for what I am, he grabbed my stomach and shook it and called me fatty, he then came in my space again nose to nose so I pulled head away and he came right in my face and licked me down one side of my face, he eventually left after threatening to get my family assaulted and made an imitation of my disabled brother infront of me. I was absolutely trembling and crying my eyes out when he left and ended up phoning the police. So currently they are looking for him, they don’t think anything will come of it cause there are no witnesses and it’s my word against his but lastnight I was ok and today I have taken an almighty plummet. I can’t pick myself off the couch, I’m miserable, I miss him, I am scared that he hates me, I’m scared that I will never see him again, and I am devastated that he hasn’t been in contact. I can’t help but feel I’ve done the wrong thing and maybe I’ve overreacted cause he isn’t 100% bad, I just feel so pathetic and lost and just want to hide away from the world. Sorry I know I must sound like a right pathetic loser, I just love him and am struggling at the thought of never seeing him again and him hating me.