I met my partner years ago and we have a child together and one on the way. I love him dearly but sometimes I feel like a doormat. When we met he was lovely but when we started going for nights out he would get excessively drunk and become a dick. One night he was all over my friends and though it was be funny to throw a drink over my head for no reason which meant i went home crying and soaking. He didnt even follow, he just stayed on in the nightclub. After other nights out i found him texting other girls and he cheated on me. And still i stayed with him hoping it would change. He eventually quit that stuff but when he goes out now with friends he still drinks excessively and would go mia. One weekend away at a stag he never contacted me or his son the whole weekend and he was excessively drunk again. I have seen snapchats after nights out of his friends taking drugs but he swears he didnt. And i get so worried when he goes out as I dont know what way he will come home or even if he will. Tonight we had a row, he thinks I am controlling and being parinoid. I just get so scared as to what will happen, as I just expect the worst now.