I’ve posted on here before about my partner telling me if I didn’t have an abortion he’d leave me, he then walked out a few weeks ago and I didn’t contact him at all but when I came home later that evening he was here. Cried said I’d ruined his life and basically how he felt really low. We kind of carried on as normal and I was hoping we’d make it past Christmas for the sake of the children but I started getting suspicious about his use on snapchat so I did some digging and was following another thread on here so went down the google history route. It showed he’s been on snapchat loads (even though he told me he didn’t use it) and also has downloaded a video calling app. Basically he was speaking to an ex girlfriend who lives in Australia and is married but they’ve been video calling and messaging all day everyday since the 4th October. I’ve confronted him and he said it’s because of me he’s like it and he loves this women and will choose her over me any day. So now I’m home on my own trying to make sense of things. I feel utterly betrayed and so sad I’m in this position right before Christmas. It’s so embarrassing telling people I’m pregnant, my partner has left and been speaking to another women since we found out I was having a baby. I feel like I’m going crazy. I know I shouldn’t have snooped but I knew something was up and he’s cheated on me in the past. I want to be strong enough to move on and not have him in my life but I love him. All I want is to be loved and respected and I know in my heart that won’t happen in this relationship but no one is going to want a broken women with trust issues and 5 children. How am I going to smile and get through Christmas feeling like this 😢