Hi
finally had the courage to end an abusive 8 year relationship. It should have never started but its been dragging on for 5 years than i wanted to and I just need to write down all the things I won't miss to keep me strong.
I won't miss
the suicide threats because he can't live without me
The emotional blackmail of him telling me noone will love me like he does.
the district he showed me every time he cheated on me
the gut feeling in my stomach when i knew he was lying about where he was
All of the lies!
Him blaming me for how much time he has wasted on me.
How he was never good enough for me ( but would never leave me)
the begging for forgiveness
My weak boundaries that enabled him to wear me down time after time.
Him blaming me for not giving him enough attention and that is why he met women off dating sites and had relationships behind my back
his fake emotions
the apologies that never came.
how selfish he was.
how he kept me hooked
The money he borrowed off me 6k for a car he bought to pick up the other women in.
How quickly he moved on to another woman. He can never be on his own.
I won't miss this decade as its been full of him - onto the next one for me :)