Sometimes lonely but intimacy issues

[Crystalxox]

Only been single for a few months which is really no time at all.
I haven't had a serious LTR in 4.5 years now but have just had a few short-term 'relationships'.

Anyway, i've been finding myself going on OLD, talking to people, then just deleting them all and never going on any dates. Then the cycle starts again.

These days i'm busy, 2 jobs, and when I have evenings off in the week (2) I just wanna relax and do my own thing.
I also practice a lot of sports, and i'm very close to my family so see them every weekend, as well as friends.

I do sometimes get lonely and when I see my loved-up friends, feel like that would be nice. However, I don't want to be a half of something.

I very much focus on myself. I like to come home, eat what I like and just laze around. I hate constant texting back and forth and just like to have a break from talking to people.

I'm feeling very independent and want to be so financially. I don't want to have to come in and start cooking for someone, and have to be 'on' and have interesting conversations when I usually have little energy. I don't want to lose my hobbies and me time, and have to deal with the relationship crap.

I can't really have FWB because I get emotionally attached. I think I would like someone who's ok with just meeting once per week, but obviously not everyone would want that.
Does it sound like I will need to make some sacrifices ? I'm also not over my ex which doesn't help. I just don't want to sacrifice the life I have now, and i'm also scared of getting emotionally involved again.

I think if you meet the right person you will want to see them more. You are already placing restrictions upon yourself and you maybe should ease up a bit.

Someone out there might be happy to see you one day a week, but I think you should just let things evolve if you do meet someone.

You will have to become emotionally involved with someone to have a relationship.

You might just need some time to get over your ex, especially if it was a difficult breakup.

Go on YouTube and watch Mathew Hussey, Derrick Jaxn and Alex Cormont give relationship advice.

I hope things work out for you.

It sounds like you just don't feel the need for a 'boyfriend/girlfriend' right now, which is fine, it isn't compulsory :)

You're looking for the ideal balance between a boyfriend and a FWB- I kind of can empathise.

But also it doesn't seem like you particularly feel the need- which is fine. I hope you find someone who ticks the boxes. xxxxx

Does sound more like you want a fwb tbh.

Sounds just like me.

I could've written this! You're so not alone!

I think you should feel proud that you're independent and can stand on your own two feet without the need to be in a couple. I think nowadays there isn't the expectation to be in a couple so it's fine to be as you are . If you meet someone then great if not it's fine so don't be so hard on yourself.