Im in a new relationship (just over a year) and i love my partner dearly. He is at best the most amazing considerate gentle loving man ive ever known. However he had a really horrible childhood, neglectful and abusive and suffered a lot of trauma. He was then married for 20 yrs and think the relationship wasn't a healthy one and probably only damaged him further.
He has these periods of being triggered, part of ptsd which i understand and am fairly educated on but they are devastating nonetheless.
I know he becomes unwell, he hates it, it makes him full of self loathing and he is devastated at the hurt these episodes cause once he feels well again.
Ive accepted this is something we will have to deal with but its so devastating when it happens, i get so anxious and tearful and although im trying to constantly say to myself...this will pass and all will be ok... a hand hold would be so nice.
He wasn't great last night, has gone to work today and im on tenter hooks wondering what the day will bring.
Mental health is a bastard. 