Been with my children’s dad for 24 years, we had our first child 14 years ago, he acted odd and distant throughout the pregnancy which made me confront him with depression, he said yes that was it. I was then told a week before I was due to give birth with DS that he’d been having an affair for 6 months, I was boring, he hated my friends blah blah blah. Anyway, adrenaline and shock saw me through booting him out but told him that he needed to be there at the birth which he was. Fast forward 18 months and he moved back in we had 2 more kids... last had sex 3 years ago. The anger and resentment from 14 years ago has bubbled massively to the surface in the last year. I am obviously a different person now, and I know the woman I am now would have whipped his ass and kicked him into touch for his shitty ass behaviour. Anyway I’m at a real crossroads. I have huge guilt at the thought of breaking my kids hearts, but the thought of being with him forever is heartbreaking for me. Torn to bits. Done counselling, she was too flaky. What do I do? We get on day to day but very platonic. Just really am stuck at two very different paths.