I separated from my sons dad years ago we where arguing alot I had bad depression and put on alot of weight my then husband wasn't very understanding and I decided to leave that was ten years ago and now because I'm not happy in my new relationship and I think its highlighted my faults as well as how much I wish I'd appreciated he provided for me I do work full time but cannot afford to live on my own I dont earn enough I miss the security of been with my ex husband and I do still love him it's just at the time I needed to get away my son now lives with him hes going to uni better all round and he is seeing someone buf they dont seem in no rush to move in get married etc is it too late I have no contact with ex only occasionally about my son do I tell him I still love him or just move on I sound selfish I know but he wasnt perfect ignoring me and not understanding of depression etc but think u always love care for father of your kids