Hi, I need some guidance if possible. I've been with my partner 3 years , we live together in my house although he has a house where his adult child lives , we haven't merged together because never is big enough to and financially I'm not in a position to do so. It works for the situation we are in and we all get on great.
My issue I think is me, I have mega trust issues but I don't know why, there has been no reason for me to mistrust but I'm constantly looking out for signs to tick my box to have a reason if that makes sense. He is unaware of how I feel , I think I'm a good actress but it's eating me up. He only has to do something like lay next to me, pick his phone up and he's to the right of me , right handed but I feel he tends to cover the screen with his left hand, if you know what I mean then I think what's he hiding ....when we are driving I keep a eye if he's eyeing up woman walking , he leaves his phone about , I know the password but never looked. Even writing this I know how ridiculous I sound... I look at his Instagram following to the point I have written them down so I know if he follows any new ones and the same with fb. I sound terrible don't I, I just dont know what's wrong with me, please try to help unpick me if you have experience of this behaviour I have adopted. I can afford to see someone about it, I can't talk to him because hel think I'm nuts what do I do