I've always been a strong, generous and loving woman and got through all kind of hardships but today I'm thinking my life is worthless and what the hell is the point of it all.
Yes I've tried antidepressants but they were useless because they can't change what my life has become.
My husband of many years just walked out on me 5 years ago because he wanted to have multiple relationships and do his own thing, I had invested so much in our life together and was always thinking up ways to make it better and more exciting for him.
He left as if I was nothing, I went through the menopause, lost my beautiful home as I couldn't afford it on my own. I hung on until the last minute, then I lost my steady job.
i had to move to a part of the country I have come to hate, I have a job where everyone is unfriendly and judgemental, I know I'm not doing my best in this new job because I'm so sad and stressed, I've had to downsize to a tiny flat with no garden and I lost my little dog.
I have no friends here.
My life has changed so drastically I don't recognise it at all.
I used to have a beautiful home, lots of friends, a job I loved and was good at to nothing.
I'm really struggling to see what the point is of going on.
The menopause is the worst, I'm on HRT but after the menopause i have lost the spark that makes me want to carry on.
How do you put your life back together.
I'm old and fat. Who will ever want me, who will hold me at night.
My life really is over.